wah.. so many things happened today until i feel stone-ded.. T.T
first; went to a new church for chinese service.. refreshing change from english. then cause the speaker couldnt speak chinese well; they had an interpreter... keke. so not an absolute chinese service lah. =) i was very very sleepy.. slept 2.5 hours cause of insomnia..
then when i finally got home i slept till 6. haha. about 1 to 6. then went to swim just now... wow; it's the first time in so long that i actually hv the self-control to swim so much and for so long. need to build up my immunity for IT fair. lol. not much diff lah. considering that IT fair is this thurs. ohmygosh. i need strength and health...
got over some things... gradually accepted them as part of my past. i have to move on; learn from those mistakes. i hate making mistakes..... i wish i never did. i know it's so foolish to refuse to listen to the wiser ones. and yet i let myself fall into the situation. yet, it's inevitable for humans to make mistakes. despite that; i will not let that be the excuse to make more mistakes... you dont have to make all of them to learn that you should not do it again. sometimes we can hear people say 'dont do this', but you still do it because you think that you know better... that you want to live your own life... but actually, they say it to protect you. and by not listening; you are choosing to put yourself in danger of hurt. it's inevitable..
i dont want to take for granted what i have... i want to learn to listen. to stop hurting myself. because, that is what i have been doing. sigh. the stupidity and rebellion of human nature.
