first day of work. shall not reveal the location or company..haha. cause these things are quite sensitive. anyway; today didnt really go well. thou i was doing the work i thought i would love; i didnt expect that my passion for it would die down...
on top of that; the culture there. very flexible timing and all; like, i dont hv a boss breathing down my neck like before; but now.... i get very uneasy at work. because; im at the software side; then right beside me is the laptop side. and the people who work there are nearly all guys who are about 25-29 years old. and very shuai. lol. but either married or got gf kae. lol.
but; for some reason, i feel very intimidated. LOL. cause; maybe they dont dare to talk to me? as in; they did come over a few times to sa jiao; then they'll go back to their 'old pple' group to talk amongst themselves. haha.
maybe it's the age gap. but in nav, that sort of thing doesnt happen, despite the age gap. feel like a loner when i go there... sigh. why is it that when i get what i want; it's not the ideal... and when i think it is; it's not. and it's dangerous because; sometimes these things not only hurt me; but others as well... sigh. the grass always seems greener on the other side.
sigh. now im wishing that there are people around my age there. in my previous job there was; but er, people is people; personality is another thing.
the more im growing up; the more i find the world getting increasingly complicated.... i wish things could be simpler. sigh.
yes, sorry for the depressing post... haha. feeling that way today. hope tmr goes better. =/
stood for 9.5 hours non-stop except for lunch n dinner break. im feeling like jelly now. feeling so tired that im too tired to sleep. LOL. wonder if that even makes sense. =/
