*caution* the following contains graphic information. dont read ahead if you cant take it.
the past two days in hospital were hell for me.. preparation for colonoscopy was really traumatic.
monday:
doctor gave me laxative to clear my colon. literally lived in the toilet. and supposed to shit until your shit becomes yellow or white liquid, then means yr colon is clean. only then the doc can see what is wrong inside. the laxatives are the vilest things i have ever been made to drink. tastes like factory chemicals. wished i could die on the spot; after drinking it you will feel like puking and shitting. headache, nausea and gag reflex all acting at once. traumatic night.. all the way until 10pm when the horror stops and i can finally talk to jh on phone... talking to him was really all i looked forward to to make me get through that day.
tuesday:
slept at 12am and was woken up at 6am to drink the stuff again.. nausea was so bad i vomitted. then the doctor told the nurse to give me injection so that i dont vomit out the laxative, otherwise no use drinking it. already feel so horrible vomitting, now they want to give me injection... goodness gracious.. i am very very scared of needles so told the nurse i didnt want the injection. and by then the nausea had subsided le. then they moved me to a 2 bed room so that i can use the toilet all i want and wont inconvenience ppl. (i was in a 4 bed room) the senior nurse is so nice..
finally whatever came out was clear le. imagine shit is brown/black and i cleared until it's light yellow liquid, rofl. my colon is freaking clean can. haha. so tired that i slept for 1 hour till 11am came.
was wheeled into the colonoscopy room where they injected my right hand with anesthesia. i am very very very scared of needles... when they injected the liquid inside it was so pain.. plus the fact that i dont have any fats at all, all the pain goes to the nerve and bone.. the nurse also said that fats will absorb some pain, but i dont have any at all on my hand. haha. so after 1 sec i knocked out and the doc put a tube up my ass to check my colon for stuff like cancer growth which could have been causing the pain.
woke up at 12 plus in the normal ward. my mum and sis were there le. i was very sub-conscious, haha. anesthesia havent stopped it's effect yet. after a while it lost it's effect and my hand and ass hurt like crap. after a few hours, my bum stopped hurting and my hand hurt more than my bum, haha. it's still pain now thou. dad says it takes a few days to heal. heng she inject my right hand, cos i use left hand to write. haha.
thank God nothing major is wrong with me. i got the scope scan pictures; there's a deep and big gash up my ass. so doc gave me more antibiotic and cream.. need to control diet too..
happy that it's finally over.. im so glad to return to normal life without chemical tasting laxative.
God help me.. my life is filled with pain every other day..
thank you God for Your grace and faithfulness to me,
thank you dear for everything, i love you.
thank you everyone for your concern..
and thank my mum for making food that i can eat.. :)
