im tired.. just so tired. dont want to wake up and think that i have MSTs right after these hols. dont want to think of you everyday because i want the best for you. dont want to prepare for stupid exams which drain away my energy. i dont mind presentations; at least they're applicable. but ive gone thru too many tests whereby the tested content is forgotten so fast. what's the use. dont want to chase grades anymore... i feeling the same way i felt during the o level period; there's more to life than academics. a delicate balance.. i feel like im falling over.
i gave up on my Os; anyone would tell you that. because i felt the same way; too much emphasis on academics never does anyone any good. too much knowledge makes one inward looking.
a stream which doesnt have water flowing out of it becomes stagnant and salty; inappropriate for produce. that's why; i want to do so many other things than study... but constricted by the thought of MSTs, they draw me back. spic and spse.... please take up my time... each time this feeling comes back, im willing to give it all up... whatever dreams and hopes of success, just so that i dont become the kind of person i dislike.
hence, i never like to be labelled as studious. i was willing to give up jc partly because of that; i dont want to be a 'mugger'. thou right now, exams seem like the most important thing, we are not defined by our grades; dont ever think that. each individual is so much more than how the government classifies us; or how society classifies us.
when i imagined how the moe has a whole list of L1R5 scores, ranging from 0 pointers to the end, i just shudder. how can they categorize human beings according to numbers... ok, fine if it's to facilitate PAE and JAE, but the worst thing is, society has adopted this methodology of classifying people according to their results. but take a look at the real world; were the greatest people in history ever the brightest in their country?
look at albert einstine; he was thought to be incapable of learning. or more in the modern world; are the more successful people brainacs in math, science, or had near perfect GPA scores? if you examine their lives, you would realise that many of them had below average grades in school, or did not even complete tertiary education. and i can cite many examples from forbes.
so why are we so concerned over grades... i came to poly to escape the jc regime, but im realising that im not nearly as close to escaping it as i thought i was, though my situation is better. having read the assessment process of schools from other countries, i seriously question the reliability in grading students according to their ability to memorise, or even applying concepts out of textbooks onto exam papers.
it does not make much sense, considering that a significant amount of the content we shove into our heads will be emptied out soon after the exams are over. true, it trains our minds, but many of the most successful people in the world, did not complete formal education for a REASON.
ok. i feel like this post is worthy of a space in the straits times forum. LOL. i realise my english gets cheem when i want to prove a point. or maybe it's because requests and arguements are paid more attention to when one is polite. lol either way.
one day i shall become the education minister and tweak the education system. lol... this adds to the list of the gazillion things i want to change in singapore. lol..
