i think this world is very funny. or just that it works in queer ways.
in life, you will meet nice people and not so nice people. for some nice people, you thought they were nice; then they do something which hurts you. but then again, people make mistakes, so you cannot blame them. and also because you are human too; so you make mistakes as well. so sometimes, even when you think you're nice, you can do wrong stuff too.
but there are some nice people, who are nice for life. it's rare to find such people. but it's not that they will never fail you. human nature is such that no one is perfect. we all say and do things we dont mean, one time or another.
it's just unfortunate if you meet one of those nice people, but they do something which really hurt you. and you're scarred for life.
but; i dont wish to harbour anything. i cannot. because i know that sometimes i do things which hurt people too.
i dont like my life. i dont like living. i don understand how come bad things can happen to good people. they dont deserve bad things happening to them. whether we deserve the bad things happening to us or not. but sometimes, people dont deserve bad stuff happening to them. it's a fallen world we live in.
but im thankful of the many people in my life who blessed my life in so many ways. i wish i could return that bit of joy they've given me. maybe one day i will be able to .. but till then, i thank God for them.
i was asking eunice, my sis, how come sometimes we think something given to us is good, but some time later, it seems to be a bad thing. then when we think the thing is good, we thank God, but when it turns bad, we get angry at God. then she told me that; we should thank God for times of joy and times of suffering.. but it's really really hard to do. i cant even do that. im still shallow to only be happy with God when things are going ok. but i cant thank him when things are going bad.
