finally the week has ended. im really tired of taking 1 hour 15 mins to get to school each day. in the crowded mrt today; i was seriously contemplating transferring to nyp. but i know that it will be a bad idea in the end; cause i would be unfair to myself for messing up the module grading thingy for my poly education. so i dont have a choice. it's sp all the way for 2 more years. just have to live with it.
oh. im typing on my 'new' plastic covered keyboard. it's soft and has that rubbery feeling. haha. bought this keyboard protector thingy from the sp fair. $14.90 i think. then bought a webcam for $19 just in case there are situations when i need it. anyway the webcam is so small it can be clipped onto my laptop.
really tired of travelling to school. tired of travelling. in the first place. when i get home i can be so drained out that i dont want to do any work. explains my lack of tutorial completion. lol. which is why im such a fan of technology; video conferencing and such. often; i dream that im able to get my diploma through video conferencing. imagine a school whereby you stay at home behind your computer for lectures, and maybe just go down to school for one or two whole days for tutorials. after all, we cannot do without class interaction, can we? but well; such things only exist for distant learning degrees or diplomas, for which i do not have the financial capability to do so.
for last semester, i knew i had this fatigue problem, so all my stats tutorials were done during the e learning week. all the tutorials until the end of the semester. haha. doubt i have time to do that this sem. my accounts is dying and the teacher's not gonna go thru the past year papers. not for stats either. which is bad cause i can already predict that there will be parts i will not know how to do.
all this time; im feeling a constant pressure to diversify my abilities. im sounding like a working adult preparing for work life. LOL. but the constant thought of me not being able to go to uni still frightens me. nothing is this world is absolute; especially when my hard work for last semester didnt pay off. there are many, many, countless instances of people and times whereby hard work is not repaid by success. hence sometimes i find myself telling myself to learn new stuff; like adobe programmes. so far my mind has chosen to listen to me for photoshop, flash and dreamweaver; but right now ive descended into this slump whereby ive grown tired it.
as for working experience; maybe i'll work during the holidays only. my mum agrees as well; cause i guess working during the weekends will still be tiring. but every weekend without fail; or once i have time; i find myself reading forums. and subconsciously i blame myself for this sudden urge to read proper stuff like current affairs and finance. i think im too hard on myself!! well if i seem too much of a slacker sometimes; it's because i had a perfectionist nature. previously. long time ago. even now, people still tell me i look like a triple science student. hahahaha. but the people around me will know that, that cannot be further from the truth. haha.
this elearning week is going to be an absolute horror. it's the few times since poly's started that i actually feel stressed. i guess as we proceed to year two and on; it'll get more hectic? but i see jason; yr 3 and very free leh. 0.o exception? HAHA.
but im really thankful for such wonderful people ive met in poly. i dont feel like only studies matter in poly. it's more of a balanced lifestyle thingy. because mugging can only get you a little way here. im still glad i stuck to my choice; thou... i find myself wishing i was in nyp many times. i really am an idealist!! XD
darn... i do feel bad about not going for the spic camp.. but i know it'll totally wreck up my sleeping timing and i wont be able to revert back. qiao mei also agreed with me... that why people like camps so much..? hahaha. im a homey. i love my room. i love the peace and quietness. maybe it's cause i get easily affected by noise. hahaha. esp mrt and the bus whirring noises. and noise can cause increased levels of stress you know!! haha.
