helped out in cca drive from 3-4pm.. then went back to crescent to collect my speech day award thingy... cant believe they actually gave a plaque/trophy with the cert... haha.. after so long le; finally went back to collect it. forgot about it for quite some time until i had to write my resume and think of things to put in there. haha.
first day of the semester... started off with stats. sheesh. went into lecture proper already. that had me half sian-ed. then was critical reasoning skills.. ohmygosh... felt like O lvl english all over again. think i will be sian-ing thru this module... -.- then was econs tutorial.. .bacsically we just got back our marks. i really didnt do up to my standard. think im gonna get C for accounts and econs; the two heavy-weight subjects. kaoz.
as i held that cert and plaque, i couldnt help feeling 'what's the use?' so what if i get that at O levels. so what if you do superbly well in psle. that doesnt mean you will be successful in life. all these marks in our tests now; yeah they matter now. but im wondering whether they will matter in the future. maybe bernice is right; our grades now are a ticket to a better future. maybe. just maybe.
but. one thing's for sure. the stakes get higher as you proceed higher up your education. im dried and sick of marks. and at this rate im going, it's gonna be impossible to get into uni. which goes against the plans i had for my future. i really dont know. to do well; you're supposed to be good at everything. but how come the modules im good at; the credit units are so few. sigh forget it. just keep studying. and hope for a better future.
