i dont think im a very good salesperson. as in; i dont think this is my forte. ive seen and heard about good sales people and they really deliver the results. that being said; i wonder what im good at. trying to find out.. and yet it is never working. thought about this matter alot and felt quite sad abt the lack of sales for me only today on the way back home on north east line. ended up making fish worried/annoyed the whole journey. lol. thou what he says makes sense; that everyone has our good and bad days; but all in all analysing my sales for the past two months; it's not exactly stellar. im not pro in studies; my job is not working out very well for me; what else is there left to try. im so tired of trying to find out what im good at. because it always seems that im not good at anything.
i wonder if im being hard on myself. after today; i really felt like becoming in a management of something; instead of having to hard-sell every week. at least in a management; you're not fully responsible of the effects of a marketing campaign. at least you can be the one reading the sales report, instead of being the one who is directly responsible for the sales.
but; im gonna have to stick with this line and job for quite some time. the pay elsewhere is either $5 per hour or $6, unless you tuition. but as a student now; i dont feel like being responsible for another student's grades yet. or have the time to do so constantly; for that matter. and also; i find tuitioning students akin to reliving the flawed singapore education system where all they focus on is mugging. not only singapore i guess. it's just the way education works. if you want to be really different, you'll have to go against the flow. and few have done that and are successful.
living day to day with no purpose, no meaning. it was never supposed to be like that. but at times like these; life feels so much more purposeless.
