crs is so redundant.. so is cd for that matter... i dont think i'll mind communications for business as much as these two. haha.
watched enchanted! haha. not in the theatres thou. dont tell you where i watch. ;) haha. but i think website forms of watching movies are becoming very well-known already right? haha.
dont know why im so unforgiving of myself... cant seem to understand the fact that people make mistakes. it's like, nearly the reason why we're human. and i have to go through a thinking process lasting from a few minutes to years before i accept that i did make that mistake. i should just stop thinking so much. i realise that the amount of time i spend thinking has steadily been increasing throughout the years. with living comes mistakes, then more pondering about the mistakes. which means more time thinking. im a teacher's dream for reflection journals. lol.
my life is really boring. it's gonna get interesting soon. boy do i know it. the thing is, a part of me is dreading it. i just hope this time will be different. what am i talking about? sitex. comex was a bummer. totally not up to expectation. which is one of the reasons why i was mentally beating myself up. maybe i didnt know the rules of the game then. didnt know how things worked. then again, there were people who did well even thou it was their first time. beginner's luck? fluke shot? maybe. this time just has to be different.
why am i putting myself through this torment? when it's only a chance, not a guarantee. cause i want independence. cause even if i failed, at least i tried.
