i cant help but want to cry. thou it's over; i still cant let go.
finally quit my weekend job. because of certain things. those close to me will know.
saw him at the mrt just now. he pretended not to see me and walked away. i wish we didnt have to lose friends. esp those you think can be your lifelong friends. he taught me so much; he was like a mentor to me. but i was not the one who gave up on the friendship. so why continue holding on.
the experiences i had there; the things i learnt; will all my kept in my heart. part of my wonderful memories i have of my youth. learnt so much... went through so much. i wonder whether im ready to move on. i want to soar to greater heights. but part of me cant let go of that feeling of the typical; going to work every saturday and sunday; looking forward to that day's challenges. im someone who finds it hard to let go... because it's hard for me to find something i love; or love doing. so when i do; i tend to hold on to it. i guess most girls are like that.
school will be starting soon. and my baby kohji will be with me wherever i go. ^.^
just remembered that bernice is ending work today. mygosh;. havent talked properly for sooo long cause she's always working. am really at that at least i have her to accompany me for the next two years. =)
there is a possibility that i wont have to feel sleepy and tired all the time anymore; that my appetite will become better, that i will not have low blood count and pressure anymore. as well as that my knee problem will be resolved; after nearly 4 years since i had the problem, seen so many doctors and eaten so much medicine and supplements. maybe it'll take 1 yr; but at least i know of someone whose gone through the process and was healed.
on the bus i was thinking; would i take up dancesport after im healed? i feel like. haha. to be able to dance again.... dance is an uncompleted part of me. thou i thought i didnt like it; but my knee and other factors didnt allow me to complete dance fully in secondary school. plus knowing that many of my ex dancemates are still in dance in their respective jcs; i miss it. guess after 1 yr when im fully healed then i'll go think about it ba. =)
